還可以再輕盈一點

還可以再輕盈一點，我說我的生活。

多一點無所謂，雖然此時此刻已經被宣判成瘋子。但能和奇怪的哲學課老師一起抽菸罵髒話真的很爽。我告訴老師我的噩夢，他說這應該可以拿去病理分析看看，怎麼說病，好像很變態又噁心，會夢到已經死去而且從來沒見過的人和最害怕的人形象交纏在一起，對我沉默著咆哮著，他說我被死亡的意像干擾著，並且在其中獲得滿足卻又匱乏著。
我覺得大家都是變態，他們喜歡我現在的樣子，一種無法靠近的東西，在保護著我。

Emmy The Great/ First Love

I remember how we met
but your name I forget
like the door that I have kept unopened

I remember it was wet
and the swelt and the sweat
and the shelter of the bed we slept on

You were stroking me like a pet
but you didn’t own me yet
and the tape in the cassette deck was choking
Spat out a broken hallelujah

But I’ve seen the way the earth
throws its aces with a curve
You were waiting for the words
to come to yer

Just to say that you prefer to be lonely
to be cursed
and to do the very worst you can do.

Yeah I remember you like a verse
that I didn’t want to learn
I just looked into your eyes
and I knew yer

Now the thought of you is burnt
on my body from the first time you did rewind that line from Hallelujah.
The original Leonard Cohen version

Well I wish I never met you that day
You said I have a room and music to play
I have a room let me show you the way
I wish that I’d never come

But now that I have, I would do it again
I would forget that I’d piss on a grave

I would forget that I’d piss on a grave
and the words as they came to my tongue were hallelujah. Hallelujah!
And the sky was so much bluer
Hallelujah! Hallelujah!
And the world was so much newer

You said I have a room
at the top of the stairs
I have a room with a view
I know we all have a cross that we bear
and I’d like to show it to you

And you left me in the light
and you met me in the light
and we only had a night between the two

You were waiting for the worst
You were listening for a curse
but the only thing I heard was hallelujah

Hallelujah! Hallelujah!
And the sky was so much bluer
Hallelujah! Hallelujah!
And the world was so much newer

you said I have a room
at the top of the stairs.
I have a room with a view
I know we all have a cross that we bear
and I’d like to give it to you

And I won’t forget how the sky was set
I said I have a place to go back to
La La La I will have you yet
I will carry you there if I have to

No I won’t forget no I won’t
No I won’t forget no I won’t
No I won’t forget no I won’t
No I won’t forget no.

Woah. Woah. Woah. W-o-o-o-ah
First love